sweet unknown

im lost. idk whats going to happen now on. but im done planning. im giong to live in the now and stop worrying over my future which i can't control. im going to go with it. and keep those that i love and need next to me. im going to hold on tight to them. im done interfering with everyone else. im going to worry about myself. and help when im asked. i do hope im asked though... i do love to help people. i always want to... just sometimes a bad at it. . . and comforting people! hugs!! i always always want to hug people but something inside of me stops me. idk how to change that. im afraid they will turn me away i guess. because when im upset i hate getting hugs. i feel weak. so i just assume thats how everyone else will be. even when i know they want one and need one.. i would love to, but im such a chicken. ugh. anyways. here's to the new lexie!