me

im goin under all these thoughts
feeling like im the monster
blaming others for whats going on
reaching out and begging for help
feeling completely alone
no one understands me
hating myself
fighting with myself
being completely lost
not knowing what to do next
no one understands me
hurting others
picking fights over nothing
pulling and pulling them closer
then pushing them away for good
no one understnads me
driving alone
thinking about death
how easily it comes and goes
the hurt left after it
no one understands me
faking a smile
crying inside
having thoughts pile up in my mind
keeping it all to myself
no one understands me
frustraded when people don't notice
frustrated when people ask
i don't want to say
i do want to say
i don't understand myself..