im over it

im done trying to be so careful in my life. i don't want to look back and be like, man i really wish i knew where that would have went. no. im going for it. he's a fantastic man... im not going to let that go without giving it a shot. i'm going to drop my insecurities and fears and GO for it. who says just because of this guy my life will change or not? i don't know what will happen. but either way i will have a good life. im not going to pick him over the future i have, but who says he can't be part of it..? idk... we'll see where this goes. no need to live in fear of the future. im dealing with the present right now. and i want him now.