on a bit happier note...

things have been getting back to normal! i don't want to even try making it sound like i did it all on my own... it was all thanks to my friend. you see some nights we have a truth night; we just sit up all night at talk about everything we've kept hidden from each other. we open ourselves up completely, trusting in each other. it's a big step for each of us but we both know the other wont judge, that is why we have such a strong friendship. that night we lit a fire and took out some blankets and marshmallows right out back of her house. we were sitting there looking at the stars and talking. she was telling me all of her secrets and i knew i was the only one to hear these. it made me feel very proud to be the first person for her to completely confide in. when i was telling her the things that have been happenning and the feelings i've been having inside she listenned. she told me that i'm not the only one going through hardships and that the things i was feeling guilty for wasn't all my fault and that people make mistakes. she helped me so much. no silly boy can compare to her. i'm very blessed to have such a great friend there for me and lately i've gone back to my normal happy go lucky self stronger and smarter than ever! :)