People

I've started openning my eyes to see people for how they really are and I've discovered so much! There are so many great people, but it seems those great people aren't noticed as much as the bad. Those girls that wake up hours early to put on a face and be someone they really aren't, just to be noticed; those are the girls that are. But the girls who accept themselves for how they really are and don't try to be anyone different doesn't even get a second glance. Why is the world structured like this? There are soo many good people out there that don't get the things they deserve; while there are people who are fake and liars that get anything they ask for. This christmas has been showing me alot. There are so many people out there with nothing. I'm going to try and help them... somehow. I also want to start being friends with a certain girl because she just seems so... REAL! I don't have many friends, but that is mostly because of my decision... It seems like there is hardly anyone you can trust now a days.. EVERYONE is beautiful

True Blue

I've never had a better friend than you. You stand by me through everything. People may not like us, but what does that matter?? You show that you care for me more than anyone else I've ever met. It means so much to me to have you in my life as a friend. No matter how stupid I'm being you are there and you don't judge me. I can trust you, for once in my life I can fully trust all my secrets with you. I have something on my mind that I really want to talk to you about... I'm really scared though. See, last time it was this exact thing that got us in a huge fight, and it was this exact thing that I have already done, and ended so badly. But I have a good feeling about this, even though I know that this means nothing.. There's something here though, that's never been here before. I don't know how I can explain it to you, and I'm afraid to blow my chance.... I don't know what to do :( You are the only one in my life I do not, and cannot afford to loose, you mean so much to me. I love you and the love you show me each and every day by being my friend!

Dear Cheater

Dear cheater,
 
     I was stupid, i now realize this. I was stupid to think someone cared for me and I can't believe I let my emotions get the better of me. It was the first day we met, you were sweet. Then you talked me into doing things I never wanted to do in the first place; you took advantage of me. I stopped contacting you for several days, even when you were trying to talk to me, because what had happened scared me a little bit. I hardly knew you, how could I be so stupid? So we just started talking again lately and you told me your sons first birthday was a few days ago. I know, I should have stopped talking to you once I found out you had a kid... But you promised his mom was out of the picture, and as you said "a complete bitch." I went with it, I thought maybe it would be nice to have a little family. You told me you wanted to see me soon, and that maybe we should get a hotel sometime. It kind of sounded like fun, but I really never planned on going. Truthfully, I didn't plan on ever seeing you again because you took a part of me I wasn't ready to give up. But today. Today I got a call from your... FIANCE?!?! you were engaged?!? We had a long discussion about everything you and I did, but I didn't tell her everything... I was too ashamed that I had believed you. Apparently you have ANOTHER baby girl on the way that is due in a few weeks... WTF?!?! You were probably planning on sleeping with me the day your fiance is giving birth to your kid. I am so ashamed of myself for what happened and if I ever see you again I would freak out on you. No, I'm not saying I'd kill you, but I would scream at you and call you a cheater in front of whoever else was around. And now, now you have the BALLS to text me?!? You tell me it's all a lie and you don't know a thing about it... well how about this... fuck you. I don't want anything more to do with you. The only connection we will ever have again is that you were my first, and that it was a mistake. You don't deserve any woman... and I really hope your fiance breaks your heart and you are alone for the rest of your life. I pray not even your kids wont even be able to look at you. How could you do something so cruel to your girlfriend, two kids, and ME?!?! You are the most poor excuse of a man I've ever met... Have a good life you cheating asshole...   (P.S.. to all my readers, I'm sorry for the language)

Q's and A's

What will you do to celebrate your next birthday?
 Move out
What is your favorite food?
 Pizza
Do you eat in an unusual way?
 I don't know if its weird, but  I \ALWAYS have to save my favorite thing to eat for last.
What things put you in a good mood?
 Good friends, going out, or just chillaxin at home.
Do you have a best friend?
 Yup, the best you can get, and even thought everyone else has a problem with her, they don't try and get to know her. She's a great person who I know I can trust to tell me like it is and keep all my secrets. I know we'll always be close.
Do you prefer chocolate or vanilla?
 If we're talking ice cream, then vanilla; but if you mean men, chocolate ;)
Would you rather spend the rest of your life without a significant other, or would you rather have a partner who is extremely difficult?
 Have a partner that is extremely difficult, you'd learn to get along, and it's better than being alone.

for my so called "friend"

wow okay so you want to go around pointing fingers at me about what i've done?! This all happened so long ago and you decide to bring it up now?!? Things you SWORE you'd never tell anyone and things you promised you wouldn't judge me on. Okay so i made a couple mistakes in life. Your life isn't perfect either! You just pretend it is. But i know you and i know what you do too. and guess what, im going to be the bigger person here and NOT go telling parents about all the mistakes you made because that is NOT what a TRUE friend does. So go ahead, feel sorry for yourself. You were someone that i wanted to see have such a better life than me. i wanted you to be HAPPY in life because of all the shit you've went through. I thought no one deserved it more than you. Wow was i wrong. Turns out you're just a two-face even to ME who was supposed to be your best friend! Wow now i really can't wait to get out of this place. I always felt bad about it, leaving you alone. But now i want you to feel alone, i want you to feel the way you made me feel and how you LIED to my FACE about everything. I really hope that happens to you, and someday, i believe it will. I'm not going to hurt you or do anything to you, i'm only going to simply act as if you don't exist, because to me, you no longer do. Have a good life without me even though you and i both know you need me more than i ever needed you.

The World Today

This is a world where everyone is the same; walking around as if clones of each other. You must be perfect; wear this, look like this, act like this. But what about those who don’t? Everyone is trying so hard to be exactly the same; they don’t truly get to know how great it is to be different. To be your own person is such a great feeling. So why, is it such a hard thing to accomplish in this life? Is it really that bad to be yourself? No. To even THINK about breaking free of everyone else takes guts. You are risking no longer being accepted by the people you once cared about, but if they truly cared about you, wouldn’t they accept what you want? The feeling of being unwanted creeps over you like darkness covering light. Who has the right to tell you how you should be?! You decide your life, not anyone else. You make your own decisions and learn from them; it’s how people grow up! Do you want to look back on your life and feel like you did exactly everything you were supposed to? Acted like everyone else? Or do you want to be someone who looks back on their life and smiles because they knew they did everything they wanted? Because you were a bright light while the rest of the world was grey. Be the light that no one can put out, stand your ground and do what you want. This world isn’t meant to be perfect; we are all supposed to have our imperfections. So instead of trying to be perfect, why doesn’t everyone just try and be… FREE!?!